It was quite an emotional day for me yesterday. I think helping my friend whose injuries when abused as a child brought on all the nonsense of my early years back to me.
The night before her surgery several of us were sitting at a friend's home. She went on to retell us some of her story. It ain't pretty she would say a few times. Plus, I have only told you the tip of the iceberg.
We found out that we have the same surgeon. He doesn't recognize me each time that he sees me because I went from an obese woman to a slightly slender one.
For me, it is still in the distant future to get total knee replacement. I still am able to walk with cortisone masking the pain most of the time in my knees. I am fortunate in that I have learned to eat and not let my emotions get the better of me. I drank a protein RTD and had a Greek yogurt that I was able to eat while she was in pre-op. I was able to be with her before surgery and pray with her.
I called several hours later to find that she was in recovery and sleeping. Was it a long operation or was she just in need of sleep. When she did wake up she told me that she had trouble with nausea. I was able to get her personal effects to someone to bring them to her today. Now, her worry is that the rehab she wants is full. As she is on a tenuous thread emotionally for other reasons this can not be good. I pray that her situation improves before she is discharged into rehab. I was glad to hear that she was up and walking.
How did I cope with the strong emotions that I felt the last two days? One, I slept fitfully the night before I had to rise early and drive her to the hospital. Two, I became emotionally drained and went for a nap at 5 pm. Three, I slept until 11:15 pm. It was a good rest. Next, I learned from a person that I just recently got to know that her coworker had sexually attacked her. I knew that she was less than able and had recently had surgery for her shoulder. I had not advice except for stop him by informing on him. I was glad to hear that someone had intervened stopped the assault. Only to learn that the man had attempted again to abuse her. Closed "old boys" groups are offensive to let that kind of behavior go unpunished. I believe she is seeking justice today.
Pray for my friends. Pray for all that are going through sexual trauma of any kind.
Does sexual abuse lead to addictions? Does sexual abuse lead to seeing food as a way of protection against an abuser by gaining too much weight to be appealing? What are your thoughts on sexual abuse and excessive weight gain? How is it that some have a blind eye to sexual conduct of their peers that goes against the norm? How do you protect yourself? Do you feel guilty and do you think it is your fault? Has sexual abuse contributed to your obesity?
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